Unexpected News

Justin came home from work this evening and let me know that the adoption agency contacted him in regards to a few questions we had and to inform us about the orphange in which the child would be from. Bethany/Shiloh works with Cathwel...don't know how I feel about this. There are a lot of families in this program and have been waiting a while to get their referral. According to another agency we don't meet the criteria for Cathwel...over 30, married 5 years, income. I don't know if it is an agency requirement or an orphange requirement. Our agency hasn't mentioned anything yet...so we will see.

Another bit of information we got is that the birth mother's are involved in picking the adoptive family. I wasn't ready for information like this. One of the reasons we didn't go forward with the domestic adoption is because we had to be picked. In a way I think it is a good thing...but then I get the feeling that we will never get picked. We are young and already have a child from Asian, but once they see our picture are they going to run? I can't write to save my life so our birth mother letter and our profile book is scaring me to death right now. I know I can do it if I really put my mind to it...but will it be good enough?.